CN: Eating Disorder

I can´t keep repeating the same vicious cycle over and over again.

But what if I don´t want to recover?

Recovering can be scary. Gaining weight, feeling like loosing control and loosing a strategy to help emotionally regulate yourself. Feeling ashamed, of the things we did, in order to keep our eating disorder up, feeling ashamed of seeking help, while rationally knowing that living with an eating disorder is going to break us at some point.

 

For me, the strings I am entagled in symbolise feeling trapped in the behavioural and emotional patterns of an eating disorder.